Merry Christmas!

This year for Christmas my parents got Josh and I a new camera (well lets be honest, it was more of a present I wanted) But I just wanted to share the pictures that I've taken with it.  My phone would always be full of pictures, but I would never do anything with them. I am excited to have a camera and hope to actually use it to print out pictures.

Oh and Totally crazy, We got snow and its been here for 2 days! Everyone says this is the worse snow storm in 5 years. I didn't expect us to get snow this year, but I am glad that I was able to introduce Kaia to snow and she was really sad when I had to bring her in. 

2015

Maybe this year I'll do better.....
Its a new year and everywhere you look via social media people are posting their new years resolutions, I was trying to think a few weeks ago what would be some things I could work on.

On the 30th we ended up taking Kaia into the ER here in town, for what I thought would just be IV fluids. Turns out she was sicker than I had assumed. I had been fighting the feeling all day, but after trying to get her to take a drink and to eat a cookie and she would just push me away I knew that she needed to get re-hydrated. Once we got her in there they informed us how high her fever really was. 104. At home I was only getting around 101 and 102. The ER doctor called the on call pediatricion and it was decided that she should stay the night to receive IV fluids and to see if we could rule out an infection where her fever was so high. Between the poking of needles and the attempts of putting a catheter in her, we had Josh and the x-ray tech give her a blessing. She calmed down immediately. As I held my baby in my arms that night I knew that I didn't need to be better at sewing or keeping my house clean. I didn't need to beat myself up for not having the most perfect decorations or furniture or all the worldly things that we often find ourselves wanting. I  knew that I needed to be a better mom for Kaia. I needed to put down my phone and to play babies with her. I needed to let her feed me her fake food and help her have tea parties. I needed to read all 30 of her books at night because that's what she wanted from me. She doesn't want perfectly sewn skirts or aprons, she doesn't want the house to be perfectly clean. She doesn't care that she sleeps on a mattress on the floor or anything else. All she cares about is that she has my full attention. This year I am going to try and not beat myself up for not having the things the worldly things I find myself wanting. This year I am going to make sure my daughter knows that I love her. I am going to make sure my husband knows I love him. He works so hard so that I can finally be the stay at home mom I wanted to be before Kaia was born.

Happy New Year 2015, We are ready for all the happiness you are going to bring!!